Abiding; Every Second is Jesus

  Upon salvation we didn't accept a moral code, an activity or a religious study, we said yes to a relationship that takes us from glory to glory, in love. The essence of becoming saved is a commitment to relationship with The Holy. Salvation isn't a bridge one can cross with a simple recital of a prayer, but constant prayer, constant communion and transformation. It is a turning from sin and a turning to righteousness and love. A life of continually looking to Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith. (Hebrews 12:2)

  This season I find myself longing to dwell in Him and with Him every moment. I want to find myself talking to Him subconsciously, naturally, as if my best friend was next to me every moment of every day. I want to live so distracted by His love and desire for me that it looks like I live on another planet. I want to be embarrassedly interrupted as if writing a love note in grade school. I want to live with a constant smirk as my mind is continually encountering the most intense pleasure possible, Jesus. I want my definition of sin to go from what I act out to what I think about, to me sin is becoming easier to define; anytime my mind wanders from Him. I was made for one thing: "The two shall become one flesh"

  Contemplating what it means to abide in Christ I have found I am incapable apart from Him filling me and hitting my pleasure button, capturing my emotions and devouring every thought. The verse "We love Him because He first loved us" is so beautifully true. We have nothing other than what He has given us. It takes God to even love God. (Romans 5:5) Everything we desire to become in Him must come through asking Him in prayer. Day after day, moment after moment seeking to love Him and asking to be filled by Him. We don't have the ability to walk out love, or to be Godly just as much as we don't have the ability to wash sin.

Set Me as a seal upon your heart, As a seal upon your arm;
 For love is as strong as death, Jealousy as cruel as the grave;
 Its flames are flames of fire, A most vehement flame. 
Many waters cannot quench love, Nor can the floods drown it. 

Song Of Songs 8:6-7

  Jesus, the poetic bridegroom instructs us to set Him on our hearts. His love is desperate for us but longs for voluntary lovers to arise. He longs for our very heartbeat to beat His name. Jesus prays to the Father to unite us into the very Godhead. Hours later He would make it possible by becoming the eternal sacrifice for sin.

“I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word; that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me. And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.

“Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father! The world has not known You, but I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me.

And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.” John 17:20-26

Abiding is another call to death, seeking out the destruction of my natural tendencies. Learning not to take a break apart from Him, but find my rest in Him. Fighting to never voluntarily grieve the Spirit I am asking to fill me. Guarding the doorways through the senses, eyes and ears. Grieving the Spirit becomes easier each time we give way to it. Sin is crouching at the door, it attacks inch by inch, this is a war of inches. The moment we have stepped out of abiding there must be a quick repentance, a recommitment to whole heartedness and a refocus on Jesus. The beauty of grace is, our sin doesn't disqualify us, but it can paralyze us if we are not quick to war against it.

  The heart of God is to become perfectly united, and I want to send that desire right back to Him. I want the love of the Father to rest upon my heart, I want the Spirit in me, transforming me, pouring out love for Jesus every moment, I want to see Jesus exploding from the fire within, releasing His fragrance to a dark world. I want to be so overcome and conquered by love that it truly is no longer I who lives but Christ in me. God, let it be so.